Not even His love...

Think it masochistic
The urge to torture ourselves is insanity
We set ourselves up for such a horrid fall
For some, Just to influence vanity

You brought the hammer upon yourself
You pre destined your soul to be destroyed
No point in drowning your sorrow
It's a feeling no poison can help avoid

Such stupid creatures
Filled up with too much pride
And face self disintegration
Over a feeling they contrive

Such notions can only kill yourself...

Song 3

Burn, every bridge
Every life
Trying to help you
Survive

Will you truly let go of everything
That's made you this way?
Can it be a comfort to know you'll never
Get rid of the pain?

I know that you've been alone in this
Battle for far too long
And now you're content with performing
Your swan song

Self destruction
No submission
Don't tell me you don't want this to
End in misery

It'll only end
End in misery

You give yourself away
Never fearing a single consequence
How many times have you played victim
To the predator's violence?

Cut open those old scars
Release the burdens you try to ignore
They'll never stop weighing you down
Just throw them out and walk through this door

Self destruction
No submission
Don't tell me you don't want this
To end in misery

It'll only end
End in misery

(no lyrical ideas for the melodic part as of yet)

I hope your eyes open
To the light
I'll pray each day that you
Start to fight
Release the fire caged deep
Within you
Defend yourself from the evil
Killing you

Song 4

BRACE FOR IMPACT song 4


Faithless soul
Burnt and scarred by the wretched
Those who abuse His name
To fuel all their pride
Senseless to me as they betray
never looking for the path
To end your misery
You give them all
Too much power and glory

Be not afraid
He'll guide the way
Don't hesitate
He'll guide the way


For forever and a day
I was once just like you
Afraid to put my faith
In something I couldn't prove

It was never easy
I knew it would never be easy

I'm not above a crisis of faith
But I still always fight
And I'll always embrace the light
I know He'll give me a better life

Find your way
Amongst the fray
There is a Prayer guiding you home
Guiding us home
Find your way
I promise its a better place
There's nothing you have to lose
For now I'll pray....

FIND YOUR WAY

Oh my god, tonight, what have I become?
I feel release that I never knew I hungered for
Still need reprieve for things that I've done
But my breathe leaves, and I'm content in breathing no more

How did I fall to this? When did I lose my hope?
All of this pain, drives me to the unknown
The alarm sounds, i gladly slip away
It's almost like I feel my soul escape

I'm feeling just fine to die
I'm feeling just fine to die

For forever and a day i've had this fear
What if I don't see You after I close my eyes
my lungs have been drained, my heart no longer moves
There's only darkness after my demise

How did I fall to this? When did I lose my hope?
All of this pain, drives me to the unknown
The alarm sounds, i gladly slip away
It's almost like I feel my soul escape

I'm feeling just fine to die
I'm feeling just fine to die
I'm feeling just fine to die
I'm feeling just fine, flatline

Nurse, nurse, we have a problem here
He's not responding, he's not responding
God I'm praying to you I need him here
He's not responding, I'm not responding

broken and bruised
perhaps you'll learn to die tonight

every minute you used to grow colder
I've used my time to learn to forgive
you've kept this disease, forever the loner
and i give my hand, every day that I live

so much for salvation
you tried to barter
for an easy life
turned from your martyr
cut all the ties
you once gave value
open your eyes
there's still a life for you....

There's still a life for you

All the tools of your self destruction
Won't ever fulfill, they'll never fulfill your need
For security, stability, the dream for peace
You're just biding your time
Until you can die

so much for salvation
you tried to barter
for an easy life
turned from your martyr
cut all the ties
you once gave value
open your eyes
there's still a life for you....

All the tools of your self destruction
Won't ever fulfill, they'll never fulfill

such a failure

broken years piled on top of one another
ignored your role, had vices to smother
only care about the chance to get away
to this day you take every escape


someone called you mother once upon a time
and to you, leaving them behind felt just fine
did you ever even try to be what they really needed?
your goal was to enjoy your life and you succeeded

can't say a prayer...
for such a failure...
can't say a prayer...
for such a failure



a man left with no choice but to work most of everyday
and children left wondering is every family this way?
now they've grown and thanks to you they don't know how to feel
i curse you for showing her love could never be real

someone called you mother once upon a time
and to you, leaving them behind felt just fine
blame everyone around you for letting your life fall apart
God please tell me creatures like this don't have a heart


can't say a prayer...
for a such a failure....
can't say a prayer....
for such a failure....

how can they forgive and forget
when you remind them everyday how much you didn't care?
you drink, you fall, you only live to kill yourself
and you had the nerve to think you could repair

can't say a prayer....
for such a failure...
won't say a prayer....
for such a failure....


in the end i pity you for ruining your relationship with anyone that ever got close to you. i hope you carry shame like a burden. i hope you have remorse for the childhoods you ruined so you could live without a worry. i'll still hope God shows mercy. And I'll still say prayers that you turn around. But I can't help but think, they'll all be wasted.

Take Me

I lead those days to the edge of the cliff
Sent them over and waited for the lift
I knew that part of me had to die
No garauntee I'd be given to fly


what the hell had i been waiting for?
the brightest sign? words like "I am with you"?
why couldn't I fight my own mind?
a devil smiling, hiding the truth


take me O Lord
I'll keep waiting until you show me what I am to be
take me O Lord
as your new servant I am done contemplating, I swear I am waiting


Just show me where I have to go...


the tears I shed fall from my wasted apathy
the blood I've lost, well spent, for my belief
now i declare I see, I am free
CHRIST YOU'VE PROVEN YOU'RE THE BEST THING FOR ME


lie broken, will stolen,
i was drowning, always drowning,
awoken, love spoken
I have risen, from my own prison


and now I walk, full of comfort and peace
the devil in me, won't stop until I decease
he will try to take everything You have gave
I will fight for you and me and all of us


Lord I've only one request
GIVE ME THY BLADE